Sun, 2005-06-12 06:54
Friends,
I just finished the largest project in my short little web career and have only you people to share it with. I use the word only because I don't know any of you--not really. I know one of you is a doctor, a mother, a college student, an old brit-rat, a scholar, a martial arts expert...but those are all just title tags with no images. Our friendship isn't valid.
My room is cluttered right now as I spent a good 3 hours combing through it like a crack addict clawing through tall carpet to find a small tube of arctic-5 cooling gel. It's been two days since I found that *beep*ing tube and I still haven't cleaned up the rather impressive mess left by the search. Hopefully nothing will catch fire.
It's just funny to me that now, after I've finally cracked this project, finally pushed that last dagger through its wretched, stinking, beautiful heart, there's no proper avenue of celebration. My roommate is out painting the town with his small pallet of contained, spinning, urban vengeance. My ex-girlfriend is over in Scotland getting the old 1-2 from some sensitive little *beep* with uneven facial scruff. And Abe, the best cat ever to stride the earth, is dead, riddled senselessly with cancer in his last year. There's no justice and there's no crime. It's all a solid chunk of time we're given, devoid of good and evil and any shred of desperate luck.
So, I'm popping the virtual cork off of my virtual champagne and jumping ceremoniously into the virtual *beep*ing air.
It's still good being me.
- Antibland
Sun, 2005-06-12 08:59
#1
Paxil won't help
Cheers 
Sun, 2005-06-12 09:35
#2
Paxil won't help
I think that's what's known as 'Being damned with faint praise'
Antibland you sound like your in a deep well of depression there mate 
There's nothing like a good anti-climax.
Oh, what category do I fall into, and no I'm not a mother; probably shouldn't ask really as I may not like the reply 8-[
Sun, 2005-06-12 12:27
#3
Re: Paxil won't help
antibland wrote:
Hopefully nothing will catch fire.
I can help with that...
I'm a firefighter
Sun, 2005-06-12 15:53
#4
Paxil won't help
For the record, I'm a student, and after 3 weeks (when College finishes) I'll be unemployed . . . #-o
Sun, 2005-06-12 16:06
#5
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Hugo wrote:
Oh, what category do I fall into, and no I'm not a mother; probably shouldn't ask really as I may not like the reply 8-[
Scathed leader.
wolfcry911 wrote:
I can help with that...I'm a firefighter
I hope your hose is possessed with super-natural propulsion. A long distance divides us. Interesting, though...some of your replies make more sense now.
EDIT - I'll now have to add 'bum' to my list, or beggar if you wish. For me, I'll add 'surviving failure.'
- Antibland
Mon, 2005-06-13 16:00
#6
Paxil won't help
I feel you buddy.
I have been unemployed for a while now, just trying to build up enough knowledge for that elusive web design job.
I have no real friends after falling out with them all for no aparent reason over a year ago, lost my band in that process, we had gigs booked for Germany which made it all the more harder.
Losing my hair
This forum and it's clientell of virtual ghosts are my only communication for the week days, untill I see my girlfriend at the weekend.
While I write their is a person names Ali from Coventry, trying to ring me back for some more help on his Taxi rank website. He doesn't want to do it via email. He doesn't know anything as well, he just rung me out of the blue asking for some free help even though he got my number from the business directory.
I guess I fall into the catagory of Bum, but I am working on it.
..and for all I know you could all be 70 year old girls. *beep* even I could be a girl.
I feel the same way about finishing a design, I have nobody to show it to or share it with. This forum is a great asset to all the lonely and depressed web designers out their.
..That guy is still ringing. I emailed him the bloody mailprocessing script. What else does he want.
Their he goes again...
I really hope he doesn't keep this up all night.
Mon, 2005-06-13 16:33
#7
Paxil won't help
I was all bright and breezy before I read this thread; now I'm so depressed that I'm going to have to have my hair blue-rinced ready for my next game of cribbage with the girls ...oops - what a give-away :oops:
Mon, 2005-06-13 16:53
#8
Paxil won't help
I think we need a special forum for epiphanies, antiphonies, cacophonies, or just plain phonies. Geek News and Humour just ain't covering this.
Sometime doing something the way you thought was right is the only reward you get. And sometimes you get adulation for an unadulterated piece of crap work. Don't expect it to always make sense, cuz it won't. Or as one of our favorite philosophers would say, "Make sense it does not."
DE
Mon, 2005-06-13 17:08
#9
Paxil won't help
It's at times like this that I wish I'd listened to what my mother told me when I was young.
response: "Why; what did she say?"
...I don't know - I didn't listen!
Mon, 2005-06-13 17:23
#10
Paxil won't help
Thanks, everyone. Fortunately, the suicide hotline was still accepting my calls, and I was promptly talked down from the ledge. Who wouldn't have time for an 87-year-old transsexual?
- Antibland
ps
DE brings up a good point--this section was the closet fit to my post, though it was clearly not close enough; off topic proved equally unsuitable. Either these types of threads shouldn't be shared, or a "Designer's Journal" section is sorely needed.
pps
A moment of silence for Joseph's hairline. I feel ya, dog.
Mon, 2005-06-13 18:04
#11
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antibland wrote:
Thanks, everyone. Fortunately, the suicide hotline was still accepting my calls, and I was promptly talked down from the ledge. Who wouldn't have time for an 87-year-old transsexual?
LOL - you still have your sense of humor! Errr, you were kidding, weren't you? Ohmigod, I've finally tipped him over the (l)edge. Stop, oh please, stop. I'm certain that Bush's kinder, gentler America surely has room for at least one transgendered octogenarian. I mean, think of the diversity quotient represented by such an individual, and in Pittsburg no less!
Just ran "87-year-old transsexual" through the validator - it says the doctype is no longer used and that there is improper nesting of the document parts :oops: - that'll teach me to ask.
DE
Sat, 2005-06-18 00:42
#12
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I'd like to complain to the nun in charge of this institution.
In parochial elementary school, we were rewarded with blue stars for being just okay, silver stars for being good and gold stars for being great.
In this school, we start out with silver stars rimmed with gold and the more you say the more silver stars are taken away from you.
Ultimately, you end-up with a bunch of blue stars. Just doesn't seem right.
Sat, 2005-06-18 03:08
#13
Paxil won't help
I'm a guy. former student who has spent the last 4 1/2 months being unemployed (sorta).
Yep. Living with your parents is great
I refuse to be like the faceless masses of sheep and have a signatu......awwwwwwwww CRAP!!
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